LOVING LIFE

I love this video journaling/ blogging stuff its soooo helpful! I feel like an entirely different person!

I am 145 now and proud of it! I met my first GW and I definitely rewarded myself with a nice shopping spree. Can't wait to get to 140 :p (wednesday hopefully!!!)

LOOK AT ME NOW!

granted...I am wearing a black dress soooo its pretty slimming... But I can definitely see and feel myself getting smaller. I cant believe I was 165 grosss.....


I am so happy that I am staying focussed and reaching my goals. Happiness (X) Pretty () Thin () - I will be pretty and thin! but at least I am happy!

New Video

I added another video to my video journal on YouTube!!

It's actually gotten a lot of veiws for only being up for one day :)

I am really proud of myself... things have been going really well and I am staying focussed and losing weight! I am now 147lbs a week ago I was 154! that's 7lbs in one week! not bad considering I had a very big binge day....


I go back to school the 31st and I'm looking foward to keeping the weight loss going. I want to be 135 by school or at least under 140! Last year around september I was 137 - I want to be there again!


check out my vlog - there is a link on the side. the weight loss is surprisingly quite noticeable... to me at least.

This is the best therapy!!!!

Challenge #1: Liquids ONLY

I am trying a challenge just until I go back to school on August 31st.

I am going to only consume liquids... no food... its a good cleansing diet and despite popular belief, can actually be beneficial to your health.

Starting tomorrow I am starting this challenge. It's going to be a tough one.

Follow me if you want to see the results and hear about my struggles :)

Stillll unhappy!

It's really frustrating when you are trying to lose weight and you gain... I go on the scale too many times a day and pretty much every time I go on I am a different weight. I'm still 150 and I'm really really pushing to get to 145 by thursday.... Don't know if I am going to make it.

Last night I brought my 14 year old sister to my friends graduation party and she was getting hit on my all of my 20 year old friends.... not okay.

I got complements last night saying I was looking good... (as in my weight) I don't see any changes yet...but I guess the people that saw me at 165 would see the changes (me on the left)

Can't wait to see more changes!! staying motivated! staying focussed!

Follow my blog to watch my progress and random stories about my life ;)!!!

WOWZA - Day 2 this is already wicked hard!!!

Okay so day 1 went really well...naturally
Day 2 was much much harder!  I will definitely have to get used to not binging 24 7... I wanted so bad to have an entire bucket of cookies...but I restrained...barely

Diets suck! Too bad there isn't a magic trick to weight loss...

unfortunately its simple math 2 + 2 = 4   ;    cut calories + exercise = weight loss

I actually did lose a pound or so from yesterday (my scale sucks so its like +-2lbs) I'm 150 today soooo not bad.

I am going to do it! I'm going to lose weight! I'm going to be so proud!

Going on a long night walk with my bestest friend :) my favorite

Life isn't easy! if anybody is reading this --- keep your head up - you can do anything you set your mind on

PEACE, LOVE, HAPPINESS

(my god just writing this makes me feel so much better!-try it!)

What's the Story?

Alright so I created this blog to help keep me motivated and keep track of my progress to get to my ultimate weight loss goal. So here's some background info about me....

Through high school I was relatively skinny... 5'7 between 120 and 135 (max) (that's me in the middle)

Thennnn I got to college.... I started off wicked confident since I was single for the first time ever! and I didn't even notice the weight I was putting on until like January... I was weighing about 145 -150 and I was disgusted. Then I started seeing 152 and when I got home from school for the summer I weighed 165!! I knew that I had to change something. (black dress is me from one of the first weeks of college)

So I started trying diets.... I tried the HCG diet eating only 600 calories a day... started at 165 - got down to 147 in 2 weeks...then I caved gave up... gained back some weight and was back at 150. (middle one is me on the HCG diet down about 10 pounds at the time from what I was...look at those legs...gross)

Then I got insanity (the work out program) I felt really fit doing it and lost about and inch but I did not loose any weight at all so I got really frustrated after a month straight of not loosing weight and I quit.

I tried fasting for about 2 days....on the third day I binged like a crazy person...

Now I've just been trying to eat lesss... although when I am bored...or depressed I go to eating and it really sucks...

I feel disgusting about myself and I need to change but it is so much harder than just knowing you need to change. I have read everything there is to read and done everything there is to do but its just sooooo hard! I read Skinny Bitch and it was actually really great and life changing and I decided to become a vegetarian transitioning into a vegan gradually. I also watched videos by tearsnomore87 and really enjoyed them because I feel as though I am on a similar journey.

Here are my goals!
HW - 165
SW - 155
CW - 152
GW1 - 145
GW2 - 140
GW3- 135
GW4 - 130
GW5 - 125
GW6 - 120
UGW - 118

The reason I split it up like that is so that I make sure to reward myself at each weight loss interval although my ultimate dream weight is 118.

Here's what I plan to do about it!
- I was on a 1,200 calorie before and it didn't do anything and frankly I really do not think that I need that many calories. So I'm cutting it down to a max of 900 calories and exercising at least 3 times a week.  
I'm going to each the foods I like...just in really small portions... and I think I can do it! Lets seeee! my first post I'm so excited!!!! but no one is even reading this hahaha oh well :/